please pass the m&ms

I feel overwhelmingly stressed lately. This has far surpassed the slight worry over what I’m going to make for dinner or the best way to organize my prized box of multicolored beanie babies that’s hidden away in a locked, temperature controlled storage room on the other side of town. They are worth so much money, they really do deserve the best treatment.  I’m deep into the realm of feeling like I’m trapped on the beach and someone is burying me alive under the weight of a thousand pounds of sand. I’m suffocating. The weird part is – nothing has really changed, so I don’t know why it has come on so suddenly. That’s likely the problem – I’m ready for a change that just hasn’t come yet.

So, today I’ve convinced my husband to finally go see Beauty and the Beast with me. And, you know what… I’m throwing caution to the wind. I’m going for the M&Ms. No, fuck it. I’m getting peanut M&Ms. I’m so tired of having to count/measure every single bite that goes into my damn mouth. Why can’t I just be naturally skinny like my siblings? I really got screwed on the gene pool. Being in a constant state of trying to lose weight and work out has me feeling like I’m tiptoeing into crazy town. Why can’t pizza, cupcakes, and a plate of good southern bbq be healthy and rabbit food be what’s killing us? Why, God, WHY? Why do this to us? The inhumanity. (Okay, I’m done with my hissy-fit. Nothing to see here. Carry on.)

The only thing that’s blatantly spiking my anxiety is my cats, so if you’re a cat lover/owner/trainer/whatever,  and you have any advice for a situation I’m in – it would be much appreciated. I don’t want to go deep into it on here, but it has to do with cats not getting along/stalking/litter box aggression. If you could message me on Twitter or email me at theshamefulsheep@yahoo.com I’ll love you forever and maybe even send you cookies. Or maybe I’ll just eat a cookie in your honor. That’s the same…right?

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  1. I’m finding my anxiety is connected to criticism. I don’t know whether the criticism (mostly of my writing) is causing the anxiety, or whether the anxiety is causing me to focus on the criticism. Friends tell me to ‘ignore the haters,’ but those same friends want to celebrate when my writing is praised… so that argument lacks consistency in my mind.

    I can imagine this might be analogous to anxiety over weight, because the weight causes anxiety that makes one focus on body image. Advice to ignore the problem makes no sense, because there is an issue of health, but fixating on it doesn’t help, either.

    I could be wrong.

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    1. Blair (The Shameful Sheep) Author

      You’re probably right. I mean, ignoring it never works for most people anyways. I wish it were that easy! Anxiety squashes any ability to just let it go completely forgotten. It’s a frustrating cycle.

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  2. Man, I feel your pain. The only thing that finally fixed the problem was getting another cat (which definitely shouldn’t have worked – please don’t try this at home), so I won’t pretend to have advice. But hope it gets solved soon!

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    1. Blair (The Shameful Sheep) Author

      This is actually pretty common advice online by self appointed cat experts lol. We’ve considered getting another young cat to keep up with her energy, but we are afraid it might make it worse. I CAN’T rehome a pet once I get it. It would kill me. So we trying to see what else helps first. Glad your kitties get along great 😀

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  3. My cats hate each other. If they find themselves in the same room, one of them hisses and spits and then runs, and the other one chases her. Round and round the house, with her constantly hissing and spitting and growling. It is so stressful that I basically keep them apart as much as I can. It’s really annoying, but I opt for the easy life.

    As for the food thing, I’m sorry that you have to go through that. I have been pretty lucky in that I’ve been able to eat what I want throughout my younger years, but that has changed since I hit 40. Watching what you eat isn’t fun. I hope you feel better soon.

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  4. I feel this post! My mother is naturally skinny and averages about 100lbs. She can eat anything and either maintain or lose weight. Unfortunately I take after Dad’s side of the family and have to work extremely hard to maintain my weight. Dad is diabetic and doesn’t really exercise. I was just thinking the exact same thing the other day, about a world in which all my favorite fattening foods were actually the GOOD foods you could eat to lose weight and kale and quinoa were artery-clogging no-nos. Sigh. Eventually I stopped counting calories and just stuck with eating the same healthy foods and stuffing my face with the worst, most delicious things in moderation. But I’m also an exercise fiend! I hope you get the cat business sorted out. I’m a cat lady but I’ve never owned more than one cat at a time so I can’t really offer any advice.

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    1. Blair (The Shameful Sheep) Author

      Oh man, your mother would piss me off! Hahaha. 100 lbs… damn. That’s so tiny! My mom is naturally small too, which is where both of my siblings got their genes from, but I, too, take after my dad. It’s rough!

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  5. Loved your Blog Blair! Nice to read a Blog with a bit of humor with reality attached! I too everytime I go into the Pet Shop first have to check if there are any new kittens. Then think my other kitty would not be thrilled – like the little sister when the new baby arrives!
    –Draculauren – unfortunately I am one of those who barely make 100 ibs. My daughter and I used to be able to share clothes – unfortunately she also takes after her father’s side and keeps putting on weight ( yes, I feel guilty everytime I am with her) and want to yell – no, you don’t need the pizza – try SlimFast – but think that would make it worse!!!

    Going to have to check out your other Blogs!

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    1. Blair (The Shameful Sheep) Author

      Thank you 😀 I HAVE to look at the kitties! I try to convince my husband to get one every time, but yeah, I don’t think it will work lol.

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    1. Blair (The Shameful Sheep) Author

      Thank you! Things are a bit rough atm with some crappy kid trespassing and vandalizing our cars with a permanent marker, but otherwise good! The litter box aggression calmed on its own. I have no idea how it resolved itself, but I’m happy! Haha 🙂

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